mark these words...

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 20:13:10 GMT

once again, me growing balls has fixed things.
maybe i should make a habit of this...

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 14:57:40 GMT

god damn, i still cant beleive i had the balls to do that.
glad i did though.

its about time i became less of a pussy.

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 23:05:55 GMT

it rules that i keep trying.
it rules that it keeps not working.
and it rules that its not even for what most would think i would be trying for.
shes one of my best friends.

i want it back.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 22:28:57 GMT

nothings getting better.
i keep trying and i cant get it right.
yeah, suprise right?

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 05:08:51 GMT

seriously, fuck 67% of my life right now.
how much can i fuck up?

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 03:46:36 GMT

well, put me in a dress and call me a little girl.
because everyone hates me.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 03:14:16 GMT

what the fuck?

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 06:04:06 GMT

oh, hey slump. didnt hear ya come in.
havent seen ya in a few months.

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 20:06:37 GMT

schools alright.

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 00:08:52 GMT

refer to entry: 2006-06-25.
but magnify it by like ten.
and add the fact that she knows now.

...its probably not a real good idea to post this where she can read it, but fuck it.
the feelings are there, why not let her know about them?
what have i got to lose?

ps: gorilla biscuits fucking ruled. 'nuff said.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 06:25:10 GMT

is it saturday yet?

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 03:24:58 GMT

youre gay, im gay, were all so fucking gay.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 22:54:41 GMT

im going to punch every fucking thing i see in the face if shit doesnt start shaping up.
i mean, fuck, why is everything not going right?
this weekend is too far away.
i need to get the fuck outta here.

ps: someone run away with me. please.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 08:01:15 GMT

i hate seeing my friends being treated like shit.
especially this one. FUCK.

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 23:24:41 GMT

california r00led.

...more after these messages

dear sandye,

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 13:01:25 GMT

you know that saying that the higher you get, the harder you fall?

its true.

why the fuck am i still thinking about her?

dear sandye,

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 23:22:41 GMT

kc kids should put down the first blood cd and like real hardcore.
and even if they dont dig resolve, they should know (and atleast like) our covers.
damn, its not like were covering wide awake, PEOPLE SHOULD KNOW SSD.

dear sandye,

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 06:37:02 GMT

resolve is fun again, and it rules.

dear sandye,

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 07:20:02 GMT

sleeping is over-rated.

love,
kel

dear sandye,

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 02:39:52 GMT

im tired of doing nothing on friday nights.
sure, i work, but what the fuck is the fun in that?

being all emo about girly shit is also getting rather annoying.
fuck.

dear sandye,

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 04:07:21 GMT

its wild how some people are different around certain people.
and it usually is the ones you least expect to be that way that are, in fact, that way.
rad. or not.

dear sandye,

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 07:14:56 GMT

new crush, but its not new, and its not just a crush. its more like a reoccuring desire that i need to act upon for once.
three years is a long time to put this kind of shit off.
i want our relationship back from when we dated the first time, except for the drama/rumors bullshit.

yeahhh, thatd be amazing.

dear sandye,

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 06:29:17 GMT

bane was awesome, this is hell did a great job, and outbreaks set didnt compare to all of the lemp sets they played the other 2 or 3 times i saw them. none-the-less, great time.
saw tera and andy, so that was cool, havent seen them in a while.
hung out with rebecca, chaz, sandye, ryan, scott, davo, kevo, and the like.
altogether good night.
and on that note, im done with this entry.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 06:24:09 GMT

chicago was rad. sinking ships, down to nothing, haunted life, and expired youth show, mini golfing, wandering/driving around to random places just to pass the time, sw33t house warming gifts, constant blasphemy, rebecca helping out alot by being there for me when im a little bitch, nacho libre, JELLO BIAFRA, dressing russel up, playing scrabble, being cooler than you, climbing trees, works bombs, listening to rage of discipline 7 or 8 times through straight with sandye, playing with fire and burning half of sandye and chazs trash, being 17 and not giving a fuck...

damn, my life rules.
im going to stay like this forever.
so fuck you.

dear sandye,

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 06:26:26 GMT

why is it that every time i get a crush on someone, theres always a problem that always falls into one or more of these categories:

- distance
- me being too much of a pussy to go for it
- age
- non-mutual feelings
- and once again, im a wuss

and in this case, its every one of those.
& to top it all off, shes really really really really pretty.

fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.